Tuesday, February 25, 2014

I Really2 have a Tough -MENTAL-

That one day , when i was on a situation. Bad situation. Hey, i always have bad situation.
Bad  thnigs come when you have really nothing on things you wanna do. Its a big deal, if even you cant have a very simple thing to have. Like privacy, or something thT YOU REALLY NEED TO HAVE LIKE BRushing your teeth, or even eating, youll die from it.

I am not sure if i am able to live in a way that i live now. Allah, help me!
Even doing blog is tough, you need to find suit picture with the text youve texting on. right?
Which is why, some have camera, theyll jst take the pic they feel suit on too suit with the way they will texting, but if you dont hv that one , how youll able to survive. i mean survive the thing which is actually very simple to do but for you its not.

Ill try to come up typing and just typing because i dont have any others to tell and even if i tell to someone feel that it wont solve my prob at all.

Everyday ive pray that someday it will end before its to late for me to having a  great mind, like  i want to be.

I am pretty ambitious in the way i am, being entrepreneur, or a chemist, maybe physicist.
I can say that , i wont let a small matters affect my mind.

I will move to Colorado or NETHERLAND or Amsterdam or any place which is legal to smoke on my mind! With my hometown as a base for my business and part of my succesfull history.

Married with beautiful Japanese of any kind that having a mormon blood inside as i love to listen to her song. . Mika Nakashima - Seppun. kool voices.


If you see the story of hellen Killer the one that is blind, cant really memorized her name, but she was like blind and succesfull in making  her own words about his life and opinion.

As your idol, youll see how their history is move and how its up to the next level when he or she reach something that makes up history, like changing the view of pictures youll see in the way they see it.

Plus, that idol also gettin a suit face, on his or her kind of way that teach people how i survive, how i move my world, for them as they also a man, born in a way to walk this earth, to live and die as the history will live forever, scratching the wall of its life that stay forever being themselves without others but still bought the teaches that pass on and on to environment, just us to catch the favour or let it be as they will always be as they were. THANK YOU! THATS ALL FOR TODAY bloggers

Sunday, February 9, 2014

If

If i want to be like. .



THIS
(Guys, this kid got 17A's)



THIS

is his hand



18 A

(This usually happen in my country)


[but  Malaysia still in the old quality]



&


THIS




-All of thesee-


WHICH IS WHY I AINT BE LIKE




hmmm





hmmm






hmmm






hmmm






huuuuu





Sometimes like


haashhhh





(when you try your best)


. . .






Staying up all night again, and then can't even solve another exam test tomorrow morning





So,


[ I am not really like above]



Just more like. .







Maybe, i am focusing things, that i don't really need to.

(Sometimes, we'll find a time to make us happy)



As, the subject is tough, we keep fallen and listen to Evanescene?






 







__

Like a tyre..U may fallen...

_
Just wait for upcoming while keep working











The Continuous

THE CONTINUOUS IS ABOUT I AM TRYING TOO DESCRIBED ABOUT MY SITUATION AT HOME TAKING CARE OF MY DADDY.



It may become unforgettable memories for me..As i am blogging while handling this.


BTW,

This is Continuous function.
Sorry. But i still need few math for R&D about my life.
[& maybe, in the future i will refer to my own post having a view on my life]


(Hm, few graph here..)




I love math as i can't understand it. BTW if i press up my head. I will understand it!
Unlike..whatever is going on with LOVE. Heartless!


_______________

& now, the story.
_______________


(Still with the morning after finish handling my father)

But not yet..
(It was my father voices again)


Papa. You call me again when i was editing blog..

Sooo... i BLOGGG you now. Hm !






Papa. Sometimes (Always) you want to drink Teh Tarik (Tea)

Papa. After that you want to eat.

Papa. then you want for bath.

Papa.. Papa

(& Before all of this happen)





Theres a time, when i was still in school & my highschool life
He really taking care of me.
Just like a mother.

(I still have my mother, just want to say that, how a father can cook for me..i mean everyday)


Akram! (My name) You want to drink tea?


Akram! Follow me to the shop, we are going to buy new school uniform
(Yes, it was my daddy responsibilties)
[BUT HE BUY ME 4 SET OF SCHOOL UNIFORM]

[4 set of school uniform is too much for me. I don't even need it]


____

(definitely. .I am saving this post as a draft to rest my head[ONLY FOR A MINUTE])

ONLY FOR A MINUTE as i need a space to edit and type it properly.

Only after my papa call me again..

SON..I need to tell you something important about this life.

(haha! For now (12.28 p.m) , HELL NOOO! He would tell me that.

INSTEAD . .

SON, I need to x,x,x again..

Ah damn!! Where is my space?
______


Actually, I am JUST ok.

As i love doing things in proper manner.
I able to escape with Fucking Stress!

Fucking Stress now.


I am skinny enough. Stress burn calories. I don't even have a will to eat.
But it depends.



Always




I can't see the truth. Please anyone describe for me




YEAH!!! FUCK EVERYBODY!!!






[OK ENOUGH. THATS BULLSHITTING]

Soooooooooooooooooo

Where we at?
(As i can't think properly)

Just forget it!!

_________




HEY! MEANWHILE I AM LISTENING TO



Mika Nakashima - SEPPUN







I am her fan. BTW guys.. I am 'HE' (Any girl out there?) eventhough i am writing blog.

Her voice is really smooth..
Sharp voice
Nice vocal. .

All of the factor released the stress

She's also beautiful and she already 30 now when i posting this blog.



-MEANWHILE-



As i am chilling in.. OOOHH FUCKKK!

( Can't finish this story)

As..

My papa call again. .

Just Skip.


-SKIP-

-SKIP-

-SKIP-






Saturday, February 8, 2014

Empty minded

When i want to find something better than brain.

 I've tried to FIND MY HEART.

BTW..

As it requires lots of feelsss

You know FEEEL

&

This happen.


I doesn't even know how to. .

THINK.

I am thinking but it was just felt like. .

RETARDED

Now. .


. .his name is Timmy & surely smarter than me

[His mind is not retarded]



______________



& before all of this happen. IM ON THE FEEELS SCENE





Satisfaction 




Pot good for the brain





Ouuh..aaah




As the feel is not coming.
I am deciding to, yaa know..
burn
Another cigarette after cigarette






As long as 




YOU CAN PLAY THIS SONG WHILE IM

CONTINUE WITH MY
. .




(you know the feeling was just so good)
Yeaaah~ 
so feeling/very feeling/to much feeling/////\\\/\/\///\....But where is the end?
(Me: Find it. .finnnnd it!)








From that I will remove all this F


This F.




Any.. F that F me









Whoever feel hard after reading this is not unhard





What else






Hoping someone will develop better alternative
for some system



Especially thinking how fast the time has been. 



Someday, we'll be love death



Was not so easy to die



ironically.


So we just choose this

[I am saying me]



Yea yea yea
Money & money

'Still' money.
Because of the first word 

'still'

I can get enough & will never feel enough

[Enough? It was only coins]




come up with



Thursday, February 6, 2014

AlmostPerspective

The words.



[CONTINUOS EDITED POST]
___________________


As i am getting older, & still younger. As adult, as i am facing things.
Cope with the future and its past, and the past.

Brought to

A CHANGE




Is the bang is already end or were we still with the bang?







__________

Hello all.

I am starting with a few word before i start with another few word.
_________

CHANGE


Your name?

[I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT YOUR NAME. I'VE CHANGED REMEMBER?]




&..

That is what i am scared to..

Change have lots of meanings.


[AS I NEED TO FILL THIS BLOG AGAIN, I WILL FILL WITH PICTURE, PICTURE IS GOOD, ITS REQUIRE LOTS OF SPACE]


So why they were people that got mental disabilities.
They change, or the environment change them?

or.. ?





It start from head





Change in Tech.
I am not really discuss just about people.
Because we live together. Are we?







The father of Blanket






I am choosing celebrities picture when their young. Because the old one is already on the Empty-V






South Park character change.

[It's cartoon anyways]
 cartoon creates by people
[Change people?]

I am hoping i can see the new season if i won't change.






Even trees
[I mean the Four season]
[I don't really have that as i live in HOT HOT EVERYDAY]





Maybe some video?


(About, i don't even know about what, because, i am only posting,
& don't change from cool to mad at me)

___

Dude, I've change, as i am mad for my self that is change after i've placing ads
on this blog.

(I need to buy cigarette to create another post, that's all)

Which is why i have got the idea to post about change.

&

Instead posting only about people that is changing.

We forgotten about our dying earth that is also changing.

And my very own ads here is..


[KEEP OUR EARTH NOT JUST CLEAN]

KEEP IT AS YOURSELF

So, we don't change to much.
Remember, we were born OK

(I mean very innocent)


The toxic waste made our perspective got mutate.
We were all infect.
People from the earth have become X-men.


In Math.

X=Unknown.

GUYS...IF WE SEE FROM THE CHANGE

[Like the environment]

We are like don't even know ourselves.

But, we know..

And, that is the problem!


[LIKE I AM IN THE TOP LIST OF THE VERY GOOD PERSON ON PLANET]



.......c.h.a.n.g.e.......